There was a time in my life when I wouldn’t have considered myself a Christian. It was a selfish time when I thought I could conquer anything, alone. It took me many years to see the error of my ways and find my path to God. By the time I paved my way, many of my friends had these indescribable relationships with Him; relationships like a daughter has with her father. I wanted that. I needed that. I had been raised as Catholic, but just going to church, daily prayer, and reading of the scriptures was not enough for me.
I watched a very dear friend of mine, Annie, die from Lymphoma. I remember laying on my bed sobbing and the only thing I could think of doing was praying. I took many very deep healing breathes, relaxed myself, and entered into an intense conversation with God. I begged God to take her and keep her pain at bay because I couldn’t live another day knowing how badly she hurt. I begged God to take her to Heaven where I knew she would flourish and escape from this Earth. I felt like it was just God and me. The outside world was gone. I asked God to give her family and myself strength to survive her death. I must have prayed and spoke with God for over an hour. By the time I was finished I felt like I had to, in a sense, wake myself back up. I had to wiggle my fingers and blink a few times before I could make sense of the present time. I realized, wow, this was MEDITATION. Annie passed into Heaven 4 days after my first intense, one-on-one talk with God. HE granted me a miracle. She was free of pain before she passed and passed very quickly. Every time since then, when her passing saddens me, I turn to Him, asking him to comfort me and keep me whole. I am able to ask this for her family as well.
Since this experience, I have communicated with God via meditation on a weekly basis. It is through a serious of healing breathes and relaxation (the process of meditation) I have developed a relationship with the Lord, which has cured myself of pain, sadness, loneliness, loss, and illness. I would be lost without my practices and wouldn’t be the woman I am today, if I hadn’t discovered such a blessed path.